HERLLOW! im feeling a little better as you can see. slept early last night. was msging nich and somewhat waiting for han's phone call. but she never called. ITS ALRIGHT. (: i shouldnt take things for granted. so i dozed off soon after. went to school. tried my best to smile for meeh. because she told me she didnt wann see me cry because it hurts her. HAHAA. sweet right? i know. she's mine. ((: tried to be hyper and happy. ok i succeeded. then i saw the msg and i wanted to cry. HAHAA. so i made meeh worried. but i was ok. just needed time to think. smiled at everybody and laughed at everythg. i think i succeeded in feeling happy today. played jokes on people and teachers. and laughed and laughed and laughed and made skai, vlr and suy laugh with me. HAHAA. and they said im high. maybe i was.

day was ok. had lunch at mac aft school. saw rn but didnt talk. did math. HOME. im wondering if i shld watch the chelsea vs barca match later. or watch the repeat tmr. i dont know ok. i have a chem test and an english test tmr. PLUS mother tongue oral. FUK. i know im gonna fail it. i just CANNOT speak chinese. GAH! i love the world, LOVE ME! (:



i will be happy
i will be cheerful
i will keep smiling
i will keep laughing

i will not cry
i will not feel depressed
i will not think about DOTDOTDOT
i will not make myself miserable